All a bit bonkers…

This is going to seem to be a bit bonkers…

I have only just realised; I have had cancer.

People who know me will probably think that I have finally lost the plot. They know I was diagnosed last July. Since then I have existed within a whirlwind of tests, operation, chemotherapy, radiotherapy, weekly and sometimes daily visits to the cancer hospital, visits to my own doctor, visits to district nurses, etc.

Throughout all of this I haven’t really had time to think…or been able to think. It was during my penultimate visit for radiotherapy treatment (18/19 treatments on 9th February) that the reality hit me – like a sledgehammer. I then did what I had vowed I would never do – spent a week wallowing in self pity and ‘woe is me’ mode.

Now it is all about moving forward. Yes, I still have reminders of the treatment – operation scars, nails falling off, aching bones and joints, burned skin – but… my body is recovering and the signs are clear. I have a covering of hair on my head, eyelashes and eyebrows are returning and my energy levels are increasing.

During treatment my diet changed. Partly due to taste buds; partly due to the fact that many of my staple foods were banned (sprouted legumes, kefir, salads) and partly because somedays eating anything was better than eating nothing.

It is time to recalibrate.

Here is to the healthy me πŸ™‚

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14 thoughts on “All a bit bonkers…

  1. Am going to be very excited to see the new you next time we get together…..at some point afew lungfuls a of clear, Swiss air might help?!

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  2. I have been wracking my brains to think of some appropriate response to this very personal post…….

    I cannot, so will just say thank you for sharing this with us all. Lots of love and big hugs xxx

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  3. A wonderful blog entry that I’m sure we are all very happy to read! So what you’ve lost the plot … All the best people have! Haha.

    Here is to the healthy you and anything else you wish for yourself along the way 😊

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